I have friends. A couple of nice close ones. But my BEST friend is my cousin. And she had been here for six weeks but left to go back home today. As kids it was pretty easy to say goodbye, not knowing that when we got older (like today) that it would be one of the hardest things to do. She’s my sister, my best friend, TWIN, and of course cousin and breaking that bond with 3,000 miles of ocean really sucks. Yeah, ill start feeling better soon. But for now i’m in that state where one thing can set you off in tears. I admit it too, i cried. But fuck it. Im allowed to. Anyway thats all.
Everything is way better when only a few people know and its a close knit community. But when shit gets out and gets popular, or even TOO popular, it loses its ‘shine’. Take this site for example, from what i’ve heard from other people, Tumblr was a great place to blog and share ideas when they’re being shared to strangers. But when people you know start to do it and it gets popular, it starts to lose is intimateness and just becomes a place to share all your ideas to certain people that you’d rather not share them with. Some people call the Late-comers “POSERS” because people think that having one is
‘cool’. And i’m probably considered one of those people. But the real posers are the ones who make one and arent dedicated. They’re the ones who post pics once in a while. Theyre the ones who don’t even attempt to share their ideas and let people know how they really feel. I, however, feel that eventhough i caught on later than alot of the dedicated people, im not a poser. However now that i think of it, could i be a poser for talking about not being a poser and thinking i’m all that? Shit. See? Contradictions suck AND confuse the fuck out of you. So am i the poser because now i was talking about being good enough to not be a poser? Or if you think about it, aren’t we all posers because we all think we’re better than each other, going along with the ‘cool’ people?
Wow. A simple blog about coming to Tumblr with the rush of new Tumblr users became a blog about posers and an epiphany. That’s what you get when you just type.
So i’m dog sitting for my best friend across the street. I love that since we’re close i just help my self to not only their food but their Wi-Fi as well. Im using it to write this. :) anyway these dogs have been fighting each other and then chillin’, then fighting, then sleeping. They’re freaking bipolar i tell you. So as I’m sitting here sipping my Mellow Yellow citrus soda and making sure the dogs don’t piss all over the place, I leave you with this; Im Bored.
So im largish lol. buuuttttt i dont give a daayyaaamm. SO i went to a show today and the singer had a stomach on him. Anyway he didn’t give a fuck and took the shirt off and said ” Hey, Bitches like the Belly!!” It was pretty funny. Then the guys in the crowd proceed the conversation with ” Its not a beer gut! Its a gas tank of a sex machine!!!” I don’t know, i just think its pretty B.A that people just dont care. And I respect that. So yeah. Thats all i had to say.
There’s people who are chill and theres people who are confusing as fuck. Then theres people who fit in both categories. I know one of those people. Yeah, they’re your best friend at one point, but then they go into this ‘the whole world sucks’ mood and ignore you. I get that i’m not the greatest person ever to talk to, or that i dont understand what you go through. I also understand that i’m an attention whore who trips on purpose to try and be funny or only say shit to make people laugh but really making me sound really immature and insenative. I even get that i’m a complete asshole a lot. But to not even try to talk to me about it sucks. I get that I annoy you and you just need to chill away from me and all of us for a while and wait for us to grow up. I guess I’m sorry but if you don’t even attempt to try and fix whats happening instead of trying to make people get the hint, then sooner or later we’re all gonna grow apart. I guess we all just PISS YOU OFF.
So yeah, we all suck sometimes. I realize that i’m insensitive and immature and will try to change that, but will you realize that completely isolating yourself and just ignoring people really hurts.
And now I’m done. K,Bye.
Got paid. Moved $200 into savings. Ended up with $99.55 to spend. Im tempted to make it an even $100 because my mild OCD. :P But at the same time my OCD tells me not to because then my savings will be screwed up. HELP!! IM IN A MENTAL CONTRADICTION!!!